I wanted to write this a long time ago, but I wrote it down and then forgot!
As pessimistic and childish/dramatic as it sounds, I don't think I could ever dance to my full potential if I seriously disliked my instructor's teaching style. I can't focus on anything else except what I want or don't want them to do. I know it isn't my choice and that I have to do whatever they tell me, even if they said to stand on my head, but I have a serious over-thinking or distraction problem.
Maybe I was having a bad day, but I have trouble focusing when we have subs in ballet. Usually, if something is bothering me (i.e. an injury), I can focus on what I'm supposed to be doing and worry about the minor pain later. When I'm distracted, the pain seems to get worse and I get so angry/sad/frustrated/numerous other negative adjectives, I feel like crying. That needs to stop. That crying thing.
It's embarrassing.
And counter-productive.
And messy unless you're wearing water-proof mascara.
And distracting.
And embarrassing.
And it needs to stop.
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